Daydreaming

because i’m on a diet, i have to fantasize about yummy food instead of really eating them. there are so many things that i’ve been thinking about. from udders icecream in a waffle bowl to claypot lou xu fun. i’ve been bombarded by mention of nice (fattening) stuff and pictures (no thanks to the sister) of local favourites. don’t get me wrong. i’m not feeling sorry for myself  and i do not want you to feel sorry for me either because abstaining from unhealthy stuff is a conscious decision. i’ve made that choice and i’ll live with the consequences.

but.

doesn’t stop me from thinking about food.

i was trying to find a cheesecake for melvin’s birthday last week and it was all i could think about for the entire week – i ended up buying tofu to trick myself into thinking it was cheese. haha! just a few days ago, i was getting a headache thinking about tetsuya’s and decided to put myself on the waitlist for sometime in october because they are completely booked out till january. yes, i am willing to fly to sydney for that 13 course degustation. omg.  right now, i can’t stop thinking about le petit gateau. i’ve not tried it but i walk past this bakery on my way to hip hop every week and i can’t stop perving at the pastries and cakes. i’m such a sucker for pretty and exotic-looking french pastries, i think. i’ll get a slice from the cake shop some time when i do deserve cake and i’ll let you know if it’s any good.

an update: i know it seems like i’m permanently on a diet but it’s been 2 months since i’ve started on my “healthy program” (perhaps my healthy program needs a name. any ideas?) and things have been pretty smooth sailing so far. i’m almost exactly halfway to where i want to be but i also think i might have hit the ugly plateau. to make it out of the plateau and to be in time for december, i reckon i need to shock my body with something different from my daily routine.

hmm….